today.

Well, got a work out budy, will see how that goes. have to do very light workout for now.

doctor still hasn't called, grr...will call them.

woke up at 9:20 wondered about the event, do I have to have a tent? will I get the cabin?

Leads to other thoughts, ones I don't want. Will I ever feel happy again? Do I really have any friends? Will some one special to me ever smile at me in that secret way? Will I amount to anything? Can I concer my fear? Will I ever prove to even myself I am who I say I am?

Today there is a reseption at work and it starts at 5:45 and its for a show that goes for 2 hours and it ussually starts at 8:00 hope the reception is not that long. Standing for 2 hours is not fun right now.